problems

i don't understand, suddenly i stopped myself and keep questioning, what's the purpose of all these?? i'm like spinning rounds and rounds for nothing, and i've spent quite an amount, for nothing??
yeah, 3 months holiday sounds attractive to a lot of people, even to us, the so-called students who actually worked like cows and horses for the employer called NUS and the ultimate boss called Singapore.....
i love holiday, but the thing is, when the holiday gets too long, it becomes something that i have troubles going through.....
well since last year i didn't really spend time being here, working some part time job, i decided that it might be a good idea to give it a try this time, for whatever reasons you wanna say...
and so exam timetable came out, my last paper happened to be on the 6th of may, here comes first problem, if i were to work on a 2 months temporary job here, what's left is only about 3 weeks at home, assuming that there's really someone who is willing to hire a part timer for only 2 months...
and second problem pops up, it's a need for me to come back probably 2 weeks earlier for UROPS, at least to pick up some basic lab skills before i can even say that i'm doing anything productive and not a liability of the lab and all the staff....
if that's the case, there's the 3rd problem now, i can't bear the fact that i can only stay at home for a week, coz once i start up UROPS project, it's very unlikely that i can go home.....
i'm going for an interview tomorrow afternoon, which i have no confident in, and i still am not able to move in to my room..
i need some time........