当mentor轻呼“congrats”之时，我有一丝怀疑他是否带有反讽之意，当mentor高呼“好极！这正是我们要看到的！”欣喜之余，我似乎更感到强烈的松口气的感觉。。。。。
没成绩的研究让人态度散漫，豁出去的想，成功也罢，失败也没什么大不了；突然间有了生机，让人突然有了冲刺的动力；看见应验了假设的成绩，情况骤然有了百八度的转变，动力成了百分百的压力，在有限的时间里，不知道是否有能力把那一点点的眉目延伸成能登大堂的研究作品。。。
松口气的感觉比欢愉还要强烈，有那么一点的怀疑，怎么自己像泄了气的气球，飘不起，也推不动。。。。
有个朋友说，把眼界放开去，需要的只是一点的信心。从前天不怕地不怕的自信心，收起来了？还是早已经无所踪影了？紧抱着的双手，那么多年了，是否也该释放出来，再度展翅高飞？
许多人都说，趁年轻，把握时机，做想要做的事情。我看来，不过就是旅行，游山玩水。。。。这或许是寻找自己的一部分，某种程度上，得视家庭环境而做判断。从小对物质的不珍惜而遭父母斥责，从小就培养对钱财的观念，财富得来不易，奢侈是多么的容易，只要把责任二字抛诸脑外就行了。父母年轻时勒紧裤头，二十年后的今天才刚享受人生，倘若只会伸手要，是天大的不孝。量力而为，知足同时奋发向上。没错，人得往高处望，宇宙无止无尽，若不懂得适时享受“人中人”的道理，到那一天也不会快乐。
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Friday, January 8, 2010
2010
not in the best condition to blog actually, but will just go ahead here...
it's 8th of January 2010, less than 2 years from the end of Mayan calender, but what the hell...
everyone seems to have their blog with a new post at least, to signify a new year to come, and so i try to do the same here
it was great having 2 weeks vacation at home, it's been 2 years since the last time i spent more than 10 days at hometown during December vacation, what's different from 3 years ago is, i realize that i'm getting grateful for parents still being very very healthy, year by year i'm forced to face the truth that, not everyone can have the luxury to live till their 70s and 80s HEALTHILY, and that more and more people around me left either silently without a trace, or suffered major pain for some time, that being said, i thank God again for giving my parents all they need to witness their children growing up, and to treasure what they've paid for with their past 30 years....
lab hasn't been rewarding until tonight, just now in fact, when something yearned for almost half a year finally popped up, a "high chance" from mentor isn't the greatest satisfaction of the day but knowing the fact escaping harsh words from boss is, it's definitely satisfaction anyway, what i'm not too sure though, is the happiness purely joy from science discovery? or just usual job satisfaction...
last semester of attending lectures, it's a MUST to treasure the feeling of going to classes, having lessons from teachers, coz that alone, is already starting to be missing in my life....
and yeah, there're still things that i know it's probably impossible to take place in real life that i wish to witness, or even experience...
it's 8th of January 2010, less than 2 years from the end of Mayan calender, but what the hell...
everyone seems to have their blog with a new post at least, to signify a new year to come, and so i try to do the same here
it was great having 2 weeks vacation at home, it's been 2 years since the last time i spent more than 10 days at hometown during December vacation, what's different from 3 years ago is, i realize that i'm getting grateful for parents still being very very healthy, year by year i'm forced to face the truth that, not everyone can have the luxury to live till their 70s and 80s HEALTHILY, and that more and more people around me left either silently without a trace, or suffered major pain for some time, that being said, i thank God again for giving my parents all they need to witness their children growing up, and to treasure what they've paid for with their past 30 years....
lab hasn't been rewarding until tonight, just now in fact, when something yearned for almost half a year finally popped up, a "high chance" from mentor isn't the greatest satisfaction of the day but knowing the fact escaping harsh words from boss is, it's definitely satisfaction anyway, what i'm not too sure though, is the happiness purely joy from science discovery? or just usual job satisfaction...
last semester of attending lectures, it's a MUST to treasure the feeling of going to classes, having lessons from teachers, coz that alone, is already starting to be missing in my life....
and yeah, there're still things that i know it's probably impossible to take place in real life that i wish to witness, or even experience...
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