life is not easy

CAs are all over!!!hurray!!!!but assignment due next tuesday.......
what an anticlimax, this is so typical of second semester, well why should i care?haha,having papers over is just the nicest reason for me to give myself a break today.....
the papers aren't easy!!!and it didn't take long for me to discover some of my mistakes in the papers when i discussed with some friends about it.....haiz......
was walking back to my room when i suddenly thought of something about what my uncle told me.....
my family and i went to visit my uncle in penang before i started going back school for form six...and there i was in the living room chatting with them
being himself a former STPM student, surprisingly he didn't expect me to go for form six.....
"well my family can't afford overseas education, going to kl for A level or foundation is also too expensive in terms of living expenses, so there seems to be no other choices for me..."
"ok...it's another round of gambling then",that's what he said
another round of gambling,he use the word of gamble to describe STPM,sounds ridiculous but ironically, it's somehow a nice description......
i guess the reason he thought is really that he expected me to into some sort of a more secured path before entering into a Uni, instead of STPM, where chinese are to fight among themselves again after SPM for the pitifully few intake of the so called "nice courses" in local Uni
alright back to the point, of course what my uncle wanted was that i can have something more secured, to be able to have a seat in Uni easier, rather than going for STPM and try your luck one more chance.....
that was few years ago, and i'm now in National University of Singapore, all those seem so far from me,but suddenly i feel that the thinking of my uncle, once very far and irrelevant,become something so close and real.....
all the while when i was in malaysia, again my "extra respect" to the education system, i thought that things will be smooth and nice once you're in Uni, there will be no more fighting among each other, there will be no more gambling,life is easy.....
well LIFE IS NEVER EASY........the once biblical belief that one's life will become easy when he or she is in Uni is superbly absurd........
i was...well perhaps i am still,shaken by the fact that even when i am now enrolled in my favoured course of study in NUS here,life is still not easy,in fact,it's much tougher......there's never guarantee of anything in life,no matter which stage of life you're in, and hardwork is probably the most certain thing you need as you progress in life
my dream is moving further and further from my life,nothing i can do much to stop it although i've done all i can.....and for those who're still holding tight to the biblical belief, i can't be more certain that i want to tell them to wake up.............