drowned

a night of which i don't feel like doing anything constructive, it's a Sunday night, the night before second half of my second last semester in NUS kick start....
it's absolutely precious tonight, for unknown reasons i just don't feel that i wanna work....ok no one wanna work at night, especially on Sunday nights, but what i feel right now, is so strong that i have enough courage to just stop whatever i'm doing, and yet the guilty of not working doesn't overwhelm me....
time flies, the moment i reached hometown about a week ago, the thought of another 3 months passed troubled for quite a while i have to say....6 weeks of holiday spent in lab, enjoyed good times with freshmen as well as had some adaptation problem moving to a new environment, another 6 weeks spent in lab, puzzled over what's taught in lecture, and getting stressed out because of ever accumulating assignments and journal papers.....
had very intense feeling of not having enough time at home this time, four days for me to meet up with friends, to enjoy some quality time with family, to drive around hometown (i just enjoy doing it every time i go home), and to also have some time for assignments....
and the four days just passed.... with mum away to visit uncle at Johor for two days, with dad asking me to travel to Cameron just for dinner with family, and well, with a very enjoyable driving trip for freshwater fishes and shrimps, with a karaoke session at a not so right timing (sore throat), and that's about all for the four days.....
i guess it's just the style of nus to give you different kinds of challenges in time management, i was, and i still am so overwhelmed with the due dates of assignments in this coming month, and lab too, is getting really intense....
don't really plan to reorganize this fragmented collections of thoughts here, am still drowned emotionally, just let it be.....