practical

It's Friday of second week, semester 5 of my years in NUS, should I blame myself for being lazy and just didn't do anything constructive so far?
Adapting into a new environment is never easy for me, despite getting myself to be mentally prepared for it, I still feel that, for a period of time, I'm going to be under great stress
Dad must be feeling very happy when I told him that, I realized the best way is just to get my hands dirty and have some hands on experience, it's also when I told him on the phone about this that I suddenly recalled how often he mentioned this since I was still small. There're just too many things I gave excuses for not doing it all the time, making Dad repeating the piece of advice a lot of time, but seriously it won't go in until i got it felt myself this time
Still there are times when I, even myself don't quite believe I'm doing UROPS. Too many nonsense were made excuses for me to avoid the reality, and I simply bypass the advantages of so many things in life because of being afraid of troubles.
I'm still being protected, I'm still treated very nicely by others in the lab, despite that, I still feel so dumbed in the lab, so what if you score strings of As in all the modules?so what if you can answer every questions of professors brilliantly?as a student, what one does everyday in lecture theatre is not really helping much if, if, sticked to the books forever
Success is probably a mixture of perseverance, patience, commitment, faith, hardwork, passion, and very importantly, luck. I'm still a baby in the arena, if I want to be in this arena.

Fake

there are people who take you for granted, even if you're as good as a saint, there will always be people like this kind around you......
to be able to mix around well socially is a big issue for youngsters, it's a source of peer pressure, what's more? it somehow symbolizes the popularity of a person, kinda a recognition of success of someone.....
i was once a victim of this problem, i was once a silly person who always do silly things just to attract public attention, and guess what, i was once a person who was disliked by most, i mean MOST of the people around me, including some of my good friends....
i used to hate those fake faces very much, i hated those "2 face" people, they are angels in front of the public, but they are actually worse than evils, if you look deep into their hearts.....
being a true villain, or rather, being an "honest" evil, is a lot better than being a "2 face" you see, i can still recall the times when i was so frustrated with the "fakeness"....
yes i was a true villain, i wan an "honest" villain, and i hated "2 face" people around me, they are worse than me, and yet i'm bearing the critics.....
well i guess every hard time in life comes with a great lesson, i've changed tremendously after that period of time, i've been, since then very very honest to myself, frustration or anger are all over, they're just nothing but self-torturing negative emotions, there's no more hatred for the fakes, but i now look down to them, in some cases, i feel pathetic for them, there'll be a time, when they finally realized the truth, when they finally have to pay great prices for their sins......
as i said, to mix well socially is important, and to do well in that you must somehow know how to fit into the situation, but never lose your true self, and never become a "2 face", you think you're doing great, but the fact is you're getting drained into a trap that you cannot be saved, you think you're being everyone's favourite, think twice before other people take off your mask one by one.....

lab

some random caps of the lab, first picture was the autopsy room


today should be the fifth day i spent my days in lab, as a preparation for UROPS, it's so far kinda overwhelming, every little things that i'm in contact with are new in my life
"lab is different from textbook, it's technical"
"so is working life"
that's how i answered the post doctoral fellow i'm working for, he seems quite satisfied with the answer, in fact i do have that strong feeling, what i'm doing in lab is like working, totally a new world from textbooks, i guess there's enough of theory and time to make my hands dirty for practicals, the technical stuff.....
anyway, though it's indeed overwhelming for me so far, it's interesting nonetheless