sunset

it's the second day for msl performance team to practise for the International Student Night of Infusion, and it serves as a reminder to me that the school, is reopening soon and i, am going to the fourth semester in NUS...
didn't expect it to come so fast, i mean, 2 weeks before this when i just got back to this little room, i was still wondering what can i do much during such a long holiday faraway from home before school starts again, since the only reason for me being here 2 weeks before school reopens is only to "standby", for god's sake...
well 2 weeks passed, and i'm almost done with my timetable arrangement, time to settle down for another long war i guess, not another actually, it's a prolonged, years-lasting war, and the past one month of so called holiday was just a resting period, for you to breath, yeah, just to breath....
the sky is getting dark, and i had to switch on lights in my room, and oh, it's another nice sunset of the day from the view of my cluster corridor...
people with chinese education background would understand one famous chinese saying about the sunset, saying how nice it is to admire throughout the whole day, but how also so short that people wouldn't have chance to appreciate much before it disappears everyday....
sunset, is like the trailer of a movie, short but not to be missed, it shows, only, the best part of the movie, just like life in everyday, the best part of life in everyday.
i used to like sunset a lot, and i still remembered how i jogged and admired the sunset when i was still staying in my hometown, it is, something that you can have and appreciate everyday, but just because you can doesn't mean that you will....
but now, i miss home a lot everytime i see sunset, it's not so nice to use the best part of your day to miss home, but somehow at this particular moment, i just feel a little discouraged.....
nah...not really negative, i should say it's nostalgia rather than discouraged coz...i'm back to the war, back to the war of unknown, i'm always struggling, there are always more than one parties inside me, taking their turns to tell me what to do, and without fail, ask me what to believe in....
i'm fine, don't worry, i'm just....doing what i'm used to do a lot all the time, and tomorrow is gonna be just like any other day, just what i'm used to all the time...